“I went from living in a depressive state, with unhealthy eating habits, a negative mindset and look on life. I felt stuck and thought I would never see the change I so desired. Now after years of learning and growth, I am sharing the knowledge I acquired, so that you can live a fulfilling happy life.”
I was living day to day with the feeling that I had no purpose. Constantly questioning was life even worth it? My whole life I have dealt with mental health problems, eating disorders, and have endured cruel behavior from others and from myself. But, the story I am going to share starts when I was fresh out of college and I had no clue what my next step was going to be, I have always had this sort of need for control in my life, and that was all deteriorating away from me.
My life had become messy, chaotic, and full of these emotions I had no control over. I suffered with severe depression, unfortunate and horrific thoughts regarding my own life’s worth. I couldn’t even get out of bed in the morning, I either ate incredibly unhealthy, even when I wasn’t hungry, or I didn’t eat at all. I wasn't taking care of myself, and I don’t even think I loved myself. I was lost, scared, and desperate for a way out; but I had to do it on my own. There was no one coming to save me, no one to hold my hand, I was an adult and I had to figure my shit out by myself, and that is exactly what I did.
I had already had a spiritual awakening once in my life, but I feel as though I received another. There is no limit to the power the universe has to help you, and they helped me; by waking me up, opening my mind, seeing again what had become foggy. That spiritual awakening is what triggered an alarm inside me to change.
You can read my full story about my spiritual awakening on my blog!
Life was moving, whether I noticed it or not, each day was coming and going, and sulking around miserable was not going to solve anything. So, I got to work.
I began waking up earlier in the mornings, now, I am morning person so my early is 5am. However, your “early” could be different, and that is completely valid. I would wake up, and I would drink a full glass of water. I know that sounds so cliche and basic, but trust me, when you repeat it everyday, overtime you will see clear differences.
My skin was healthier, my digestion had improved, and I had more energy throughout the day.
Anyways, I would wake up early, drink a glass of water, and then I would go for a walk.
I’ve lived in both a suburban neighborhood and a big city, so if you’re comfortable walking around outside do it, or you can always find a local gym that is affordable and walk on the treadmills there. After my walk, I would sometimes go on a bike ride as well, as long as the weather cooperated.
Next, I created my workout routine, which you can learn
all about in my course.
I would workout, and then get ready for my day. Waking up early and getting in exercise right away in the morning, boosted my energy, gave me a routine that I could succeed at everyday.
I felt better, and I looked better.
I began changing my eating habits, I learned that I had very poor gut health. I researched all about gut health, did research on my own body type. I developed a consistent healthy diet and I am now the healthiest I have ever been.
Finally, I had been taking care of my mental health.
I actually took time to prioritize myself…
I journaled: my feelings, what I am grateful for, poetry etc. I read all sorts of books, for fun, and for educational purposes. I have linked 6 of the books that really helped me on my journey toward a healthier life. I would do things that would make me feel good and at peace. I love to make puzzles, so I would sit down, make myself a cup of tea and build a puzzle. Painting, baking, writing, dancing: all things I love doing that bring me peace.
You need to find out what brings you inner peace.
Out of all the things that I did to help myself, the mental healing was the biggest. Putting myself first, making myself a priority and knowing my worth. Allowing myself to rest and taking time to do things I love. I am a working girl at heart, I love to work and succeed, but without proper rest and releasing the stress, I would burn myself out. I’ll admit I still get very caught up in my work sometimes, but one thing I tell myself is: “Youre work is not your worth.” It doesn’t matter how much money you make, how fast you can run, how many sales you make…
That does not define who you are. I am not just a blogger, or just a dancer…
I am Makenna, I am a creative, cunning, intelligent, kind, kindred-spirit human. And then comes all the beautiful little facts and flaws about you, that come with being human.
I used to tell myself, “human first, dancer second.”
Take care of yourselves loves, this is your life. Treat yourself like the goddess you are, embrace every little flaw, desire, guilty pleasure, because that is what makes us human and it is raw and beautiful.
